I have always pick myself up every fall,i have been tough all thru out,when today you told me the cruel truth,my mind is in a blank,i just can't digest every words.It just like a recorder which keep playing again and again in my mind and i just can't think of anything...why does it happen when i truthfully putting my heart and soul into something that i have decided,times and times i have been trying to resurface and saving it......i thought that when things could go back to the starting point,things can be improve and could be even better......until i realised a fact that the STARTING POINT is an ENDING POINT!!Why??WHY am i so useless??
The words just keep ramming my mind,invading my mind,i try to think wat am i going to do.....somehow or rather....my mind is in a TOTALLY BLANK....i really can't think,can't figure.....not a solution not an answer there!!Looking thru the times,the holidays,those happy moments...i cried....it's not just my eyes,my heart too....Letting go=Freedom???Is that so??I know whatever i do now can't change your thinking and feeling.
perhaps is this the ending??Everybody wants a happy ending,what about me??Why?There is just too many WHY in my head now and i just can't figure out why....everybody want the understanding from everyone,is there anyone out there to understand what the fucking shit i'm facing now?
I've been strong,the only time i've cried is my beloved dad DAD pass away without me having the last look at him,but why now??why am i in tears?Why?
Perhaps you guys out there have the answer.....but......it's still me......perhaps times will heal all wounds,for all i know now is Why am i feeling this way?Where is the strong in me?Where is the toughness in me?where is the take thing easy attitude in me?Where is the "XIAO SHA" in me?WHERE are you when i needed you most??

What the fuck is happening to you now?Are you losing confidence in yourself or are you losing confidence in others??
You had fall hard before and stand up again and again!!
Standing at this cross road junction,wat is your fucking decision?you gotta make a choice.
Life is all about choices,isn't it?Be good or bad....
Maybe you should learn to let go...because letting go=Freedom
How many actually 5yrs do you have in life right now?
DONNY!!! Dun give up!!Life is still beautiful whatever decision you make,just think carefully because life isn't about regret,it's about being getting better!!!

There a reason for what is happening,there is a reason for thing that have done...when there is a game that is being played,everybody wanted to win by hook or by crook!!
therefore,i will make you play my game and make you fall real hard this time round!!!
MARK MY WORDS!! **evil Grin**

For the time i stepped out of the house i thought those days were gone,from the day you changed your num,i thought it was over.....until you told me you was always there for me and you just wanna leave us some space,you did not give up on me and told me not to give up on myself....now i know.......you have not changed....i really do not wanna burden you both with my problem that i have created....
Wishes youhave a great happybirthday ahead and may all your wishes come true.....
All i wanna say is for the time i solvemyproblemswill be the day i marked my return...sincerely,hopefully i hope you can wait

Times reallyflies,2010 gonna end in 2mths time,1st thing that cameto my mind is ashley is oredi 10yrs old..i really misses her,everyone asking me is there a possibility to salvage the things that used to be?Well.....i do not dare to think so much as for now.1thing in my mind is if ever there's achance to leave here,i would not hesitate to do so as there is no 1 or nothing for me that can keep me here in this pathetic place...
For those who are feeling lost,dun give up,for those who having a greattime....cherish the time spent as youguys would not know wat's thefuture have in store for you....

Been working for continously 10 days until today to get a break away from it,im just missing out too much in life...wat can i say?I love the job,i love the income but i feel so depleted...i really wish for a short holiday,with the sand,the sun and the water......

How i miss my little baby,memories of you stopped abruptly since 2008 Aug,the way you makes me angry,the way that you will neverless entertain yourself,the way you will go craving for some snack,the way you will make me buy you those toys,all i have now are those photos that i have taken,leaving the unlimited yearn to hold your hand and bring you to school...............................