HAPPY 2010 PEOPLE!!!!

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IT"S COMING

With less than 12 more hours to go before 2009 gonna end,somehow i did not feel excited as before.What is happening?!?!?However,i will just go with the flow,counting down mins by mins till 2010 arrive.
Gonna do something abt it...boozing myself silly tonite haha....so dat i can wake up in a new year lols!!
1st thing im gonna do in the 1st day of the 2010 will be painting up the house with colours!!
Helping him decorate so dat he will remember me!!!hahahaha....
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU & SURPRISE!!!!!

20?10?2010?

5 more days mark a new beginning of a fresh start year with everybody counting down and away of 2009 which sad to say was a terrible year to me of unexpected phenomenom happening thru!!Abit difficult to digest though but obviously excited abt 2010 approaching.
I guess everyone will be excited in his/her way in welcoming 2010,count down parties,boozing away,dancing thru the n1te...all i wish was spending my counting down with closed ones,making a wish when the clock strike 12mn on the 31st of dec 2009...hehe,guess when ones gets older,how they wih their life was more simple...dats wat my sis always said"Simplicity's the BEST"
HAPPY 2010 year to everyone and time to plan those event and resolution in times to come!!
Forzza!!

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ENDING

15 more days to end year 2009 which have been an undescribe dramatic year for the past 11 months.Things just happened so unexpectly which the tide was riding against the wind for me.
I hope for the coming 2010 would bring a better significiant sign to accompany me riding throught another year in my life for the 3rd decade.
As days fading away in life,there are so many things just happened that at that moment you wish that you were still a teenager enjoying life without any burden and worries in head however this is life,as you grew older,burden and responsibilites keep packing up onto your shoulder.Nature took away life from closed ones,you discovered that people whom you used to know doesn't seem to understand them anymore,feeling for loved one changed,faded away..sound sad huh,but this is life.Thing do happen and most of the time they happen for a reason which most of the time before we could actually understands it.
I remember a saying goes like this "It takes a moment to understand but a lifetime to realise it" How true is that gonna be?You decide!!Greed is the motivation force of all evil and it drives people to concede the 7 SINS without any deeper thoughts.
Life is indeed beautiful if you know where is your direction is,for those are are without any compass or lost in the midst of the concret jungle...Dun panic,take a rest,sit down,enjoy the music and give a deep thoughts,give yourselves some times alone to figure out things..and start moving on again.....

Life?

It just feel so damn pissed off when u have actually out of goodwill helping someone out and get urself into problems..Y can't the tide just slow down??The wave keep pouring in like tsumani...how worse will it get?
It's just getting weary of thinking how life gonna be and what to expect from it.
It's just getting more than a handful,
It's just getting too weary,
It's just geeting blury vision,
It's just getting tired,
Life still goes on,how much adrenline left for me?
Just hanging on....
Just so TIRED......

INSOMNIA

I never thought that I'd fall in love, love, love, love

But it grew from a simple crush, crush, crush, crush

Being  without you girl, I was all messed up, up, up, up

When you walked out, said that you'd had enough-nough-nough-nough

Been a fool, girl I know

Didn't expect this is how things would go

Maybe in time, you'll change your mind

Now looking back i wish i could rewind

Because i can't sleep til you're next to me

No i can't live without you no more

Oh i stay up til you're next to me

Til this house feels like it did before

Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Been a fool (fool), girl I know (know)

Didn't expect this is how things would go

Maybe in time (time), you'll change your mind (mind) 

Now looking back i wish i could rewind

Because i can't sleep til you're next to me

No i can't live without you no more (without you no more)

Oh i stay up til you're next to me (to me)

Til this house feels like it did before (Because it)

Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Feels like insomnia ah ah (Ah), Feels like insomnia ah ah

Ah, i just can't go to sleep

Cause it feels like I've fallen for you

It's getting way too deep

And i know that it's love because

I can't sleep til you're next to me

No i can't live without you no more (without you no more)

Oh i stay up til you're next to me (to me)

Til this house feels like it did before

Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

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HOW I MISS HOLIDAYSSSSSSS....AND THE AIR OF THE FOREIGN.....

It's been such a long long time since i have updated my blog,thank to qiqi for changing the template as i knew nuts abt all these thing lols,kinda silly rite...sara even laugh at me for dun even know how to manage my blogspot...haa

Well,i must indeed said that life is like a box of chocolate,u never know what's you gonna find inside that box!!2mths ago,i was having a shaking period in my life,it was almost funerable or shld i say prone to be attack,i guess nobody was having the best of their life,having all thoese thoughts,the pace of life just too momentum,there wasn't much to do yet think alot!!Life just get darker after the rain..i never get to see the sunshine.

Perhap my brain was jsut too occupied with stress,family member,loved ones,friends....it was just way too much i can describe,eric was being called back and charge for consumption of Melt,mr waterman have to worry about where to stay after he sell his house,ah mao was slaying each day making it scrappy,adrain was totally UNHEARD...wat happen to him man...

until recently i heard him!!!....he's still alive!!lols

So me....well,life couldnt be worse for the past 6mths,just too dramatic,things i thoought wouldnt happen...happened.After been thru wat had happen,i finally learnt more things,cherish more...i learned how to love more...people around me,people who are still with me.I know no matter how,what's past is past..it wun be the same anymore...things do changes,thinking changed too.

However what's important is just give your best,do your best and wait for result,u know,it just like take my N level haha...all i do is sit down....challenge the paper,give my shot and call it a day.

Other than that,you cant control anymore...it the other party who is is control of the situation..well,i passed my N level..lols...i didnt even could imagine it..

i dun felt any regret

i dun intend to turn back

i believe in my heart

i choose my road,my direction.......

so i will just give my best......and just wait

After so so long,finally i get to speak to my BB...im glad to know that she ois doing well in her studies and actively taking in sports...she even sent me a happy father's day card.

This really brighten up my day,at least i know in her heart,she still remember me..hahas

GOD...bless her well

27/06/09

They say heaven got EYES,what we do,heaven is watching..what goes around comes around...thou shall not speaks doesn't mean thou shall not know..someimes keeping it unknown may be a best way or white little lies that keep trouble spelling.Human are strange big creature that most of them do not have a mirror reflecting themselves what they are doing until they stumbled a rolling stone.
U do what you think,u reap what u sow.U think u r clever without thinking there's always a mountain higher somewhere,life is just like playing games,some goes by the rules whereby some in fact ignore the rules..Rules of the game is that ''U CAN DO ANYTHING BEHIND THE RULES BUT DUN GET CAUGHT!!"
INSANE OR A SAINT...U decide....it's just a thin hairline btw both.

THIS IS LIFE

Losing everything and fell rock bottom is part and parcel in life,it just depends on how one will stand up from the fall,knowing the path and walking the path is 2 different thing.Dun say one will know wat it means...face it and you will damn fucking knowing the whole process.Good friends dun say much,they will just stand by you,no matter how it is...loved one stands by you,no matter how hard it takes...perhap only in difficult circumstances,one will realised much much more things,situation,envioroment and see "through" people who though they are friends,but they aren't.FUCK THEM ALL who think they are...for those geniune ones.....stay put and stay calm...
As they said...the whole is round.Dun be happy if one have succeeded coz consistancy plays a part,those who failed doesn't need to feel sad,it's just a stepping stone to something more...
Every rose has it's thorns
Just like every night has it's dawn
Just like every cowboy sing his sad sad song
Every rose has it's thorn
This ain't a song for the brokenhearted
No silent prayer for the faith departed and I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice when I shout it out loud
This is for the ones who stood their ground
For Tommy and Gina who never backed down
Tomorrow's getting harder, make no mistake
Luck ain't even lucky, gotta make your own breaks
You better stand tallWhen they're calling you out
Don't bend, don't breakBaby, don't back down
It's my lifeIt's now or never
'Cause I ain't gonna live forever
I just wanna live while I'm alive
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said, "I did it my way"I just wanna live while I'm alive
(It's my life)

THANK YOU FOR THE 1 MIN. CONCERNTRATION...
ROCK YOUR LIFE,DAMN ASS!! LOLS

LET GO = FREEDOM???

Sms roam me yesterday nite,"just get prepare to sign the paper that binding me and you for the god damn 9yrs and custordy of Ashley will be yours" 1st word that came to my mind was DAMN IT,in the 1st place u were the one asking me not to fight for her and now u just want to shake her off,i replied "FINE,if u dun wan her,i will take care of her" Came the reply"btw i will check for the value of the hse and get it sell off by end of this yr to settle everything"
So i just told her what will happen if were to came to this decision at this point of time,she told me off not to teach her what to do!!FUCK IT...im just telling you what will happen, and im not teaching anyone what to do now...so i told her im tired,really tired that i do not wish to tok anymore since she doesnt get what i mean.
I made my mistake which i did not spent enough time with Ashley in the 1st place that the reason why BB doesnt feel close to me,i dun blame anyone,i will face my music....i aso understand that it's been a torturing 10yrs and have to wait for another 3more yrs before everything can be settled is a thorn to you...i dun blame you..perhap u have found ur new life,everybody move on....life's goes on...perhap,perhap....LET GO = FREEDOM
What a piece of prediction to end the year 2009!!
Suddenly came a piece of lyric in my mind "im sorry for the times i left u home while i was on the road and u were alone at home,im sorry for the times i had to go,im sorry for the fact that i did not know that you were sitting at home wishing we could go back when it was just you and me,im sorry for the time i would neglect im sorry for the time for those disrespect,im sorry for the wrong thing that ive done im sorry for the fact im not away that you cant sleep at nitewhen im not ard,becoz im in the street for everyday,im sorry for the thing i did not say like how you were the best thing in my lifeand how i was so roud to call you my girl and i understand there's some problemsand im not too blind to know all the pain you kept inside youeven u might not show,if i cant apologize for being wrong then it's just a shame on me i'd be the reason for your painand you could put the blame on me."Alhough this song is sang by akon to her mum however to me,it's me to her and my BB

Time wasn't Right

They noe each other due to some unforseen reason(fate is the word i would say).After knowing each other for some times,they could really click and could tok everything under the sun from teenage life to recent things that had happened.Learning from her,he realised that she have been thru lotsa situation which not everyone could image,it could be normal,it could been complicated (everybody see things from different angle).
Although she had been thru so many kind of situation,he knows that what happen recently was too much for her to take it,from work,relationship to family matters,however she still put up a strong front acting that it's just normal but deep inside he can sense that she is feeling so stress to handle all these things.He tried to find time to accompany her coz she will do something which you guys would not even imagined!!
One fine nite,as usual he went over to accompany her,things looks normal and conversation strike up which was a happy one making her feel at least there is someone out there who cares about her.
The next morning,he recieved a text from her that she made an important decision which shock him coz she told him the next morning she will be going to work,he replied however she did not replied back...knowing that it was a big and brave decision she had made becoz she did mentioned before.He.....deep inside his heart knows that sooner or later she have to do something about it.
It was out of nowhere that they know each other not for long and they both know that both of them have feel towards each other but due to complicated reason and situation.....they could only let nature take it's course.....
He could just hope that she will be fine and safe after everything ended.Let time and nature do the work.