For the past weeks,thoughts have rampage thru my mind,thinking about what's to plan ahead..Thanks to all these adverse situation,god's test to me..it's time to pick myself up and carry on with my life!!!
Life is all about making decision!!Once made,do not look back and do not regret coz life'stoo short for that,it was meant for other better purposes!!
Thank you for all these adverse!!What doesn't kill me will just make me STRONGER!!
I have been shutting myself out too long,maybe it'stime to do what i think i should do!!
When you have did your best,do not worry about the result as they said,you can do whatever you can...the rest will depends on fate!!
Once again...Thanks to all those adverse!!!
I have learn to love it rather than sitting in a corner whining and moaning!!!
LIFE GOES ON ya!!!

I have always pick myself up every fall,i have been tough all thru out,when today you told me the cruel truth,my mind is in a blank,i just can't digest every words.It just like a recorder which keep playing again and again in my mind and i just can't think of anything...why does it happen when i truthfully putting my heart and soul into something that i have decided,times and times i have been trying to resurface and saving it......i thought that when things could go back to the starting point,things can be improve and could be even better......until i realised a fact that the STARTING POINT is an ENDING POINT!!Why??WHY am i so useless??
The words just keep ramming my mind,invading my mind,i try to think wat am i going to do.....somehow or rather....my mind is in a TOTALLY BLANK....i really can't think,can't figure.....not a solution not an answer there!!Looking thru the times,the holidays,those happy moments...i cried....it's not just my eyes,my heart too....Letting go=Freedom???Is that so??I know whatever i do now can't change your thinking and feeling.
perhaps is this the ending??Everybody wants a happy ending,what about me??Why?There is just too many WHY in my head now and i just can't figure out why....everybody want the understanding from everyone,is there anyone out there to understand what the fucking shit i'm facing now?
I've been strong,the only time i've cried is my beloved dad DAD pass away without me having the last look at him,but why now??why am i in tears?Why?
Perhaps you guys out there have the answer.....but......it's still me......perhaps times will heal all wounds,for all i know now is Why am i feeling this way?Where is the strong in me?Where is the toughness in me?where is the take thing easy attitude in me?Where is the "XIAO SHA" in me?WHERE are you when i needed you most??

What the fuck is happening to you now?Are you losing confidence in yourself or are you losing confidence in others??
You had fall hard before and stand up again and again!!
Standing at this cross road junction,wat is your fucking decision?you gotta make a choice.
Life is all about choices,isn't it?Be good or bad....
Maybe you should learn to let go...because letting go=Freedom
How many actually 5yrs do you have in life right now?
DONNY!!! Dun give up!!Life is still beautiful whatever decision you make,just think carefully because life isn't about regret,it's about being getting better!!!

There a reason for what is happening,there is a reason for thing that have done...when there is a game that is being played,everybody wanted to win by hook or by crook!!
therefore,i will make you play my game and make you fall real hard this time round!!!
MARK MY WORDS!! **evil Grin**

For the time i stepped out of the house i thought those days were gone,from the day you changed your num,i thought it was over.....until you told me you was always there for me and you just wanna leave us some space,you did not give up on me and told me not to give up on myself....now i know.......you have not changed....i really do not wanna burden you both with my problem that i have created....
Wishes youhave a great happybirthday ahead and may all your wishes come true.....
All i wanna say is for the time i solvemyproblemswill be the day i marked my return...sincerely,hopefully i hope you can wait

Times reallyflies,2010 gonna end in 2mths time,1st thing that cameto my mind is ashley is oredi 10yrs old..i really misses her,everyone asking me is there a possibility to salvage the things that used to be?Well.....i do not dare to think so much as for now.1thing in my mind is if ever there's achance to leave here,i would not hesitate to do so as there is no 1 or nothing for me that can keep me here in this pathetic place...
For those who are feeling lost,dun give up,for those who having a greattime....cherish the time spent as youguys would not know wat's thefuture have in store for you....

Been working for continously 10 days until today to get a break away from it,im just missing out too much in life...wat can i say?I love the job,i love the income but i feel so depleted...i really wish for a short holiday,with the sand,the sun and the water......

How i miss my little baby,memories of you stopped abruptly since 2008 Aug,the way you makes me angry,the way that you will neverless entertain yourself,the way you will go craving for some snack,the way you will make me buy you those toys,all i have now are those photos that i have taken,leaving the unlimited yearn to hold your hand and bring you to school...............................

Time passes so fast,it has been 3 weeks since i transferred over to the new outlet.Work is as usual tiring,met new collegues at work and a total new learning experiences here.I have my eyes really open on how personal incentive system affect the relationship at work,be it or not,there's a mask over everyone here.
In my opinion,the most annoying 1 will be that old skinny BITCH who is working er ass off to get me irritated every now and then,there an old man who never make me laugh and a young man who i can only tok to.
Ever since i was on this job,i have felt my life is so bored,nothing but work,eat and sleep.How i missed those holiday moment to set yourself free,enjoying the sun,the beach and the sea....hmmm,gotta plan for a short getaway trip and avoid seeing those unecessary people..hehe

I didnt know that this company was looking for a supervisory role with such simple requirement,just feel so unworth staying on,had i know this earlier,i would have rebuke it long ago..sigh...what to do,i just have to keep my eye open and start hunting again for i feel that beside product knowledge,all your staff really CMI!!
Let just see how the new SIC going to fare in your new store...haha
hmmm...now that i see u at work,the kind of feeling was totally different from it used to be,perhap,you are just a topic for me to past my time,not really that eager to get to know you anymore...maybe i should change my view for something new haha...y am i so bad nowadays?lols

Another week past,really been enjoying my time at work,perhap it was YOU who make the extra additional color at work,hope you do have a good rest and hopefully it's today hehe...
That day when Andy called you,why did you reject him?i am really curious,what are you thinking?hmmm...i am waiting for chance to make my 1st move,you are my new challenge now hahaha...

World Cup fever is on now!!!Thanks to adrian for recomending online live watch,tonite is Azzurri vs the latin water melon hahaha...i have been an Azzurri supporter over these 10 years but i can't see them winning consectively this year round,hot fav was the bull's dancing spainard.Hopefully Azzurri will win tonite match hehe and this is the reason i am still awake,waiting for the match to be watch online later.
Finally got my off day,been working for 8 continuously days,12 hours everyday so that's total up to 108hours.Happy to be off but i will definately miss my 2 views which kept me going for the working life lols!!!Hope you are off tomorrow too,you have been working for too long too hehe....
it's getting much and much interesting at work as i saw my new workmate's character revealing in an unglam fashion,D,dun snob a loser's attitude when you learned that thing are not going to your way,afterall you are neither that experienced nor have you grown with the company for that long period of time,if you think you are not getting the way you expected from them,my opinion is pls make future plan!!Dun sulked and whined at the corner.
A was a joker which make my day at work however i have been waiting for chances that he would call my view over then i would have the chance to talk haha...so bad right?I know you do fancy but you just do not dare to have a small chat,im just waiting for a perfect chance,dude....hope i would not bust your balloon too hard hehehe *evil grin**
Im just getting weary,i do not wanna play mind games anymore.I will start to plan my move,every step,every move,i wanna catch you unaware,ust like a snake bite,fast and swift!!I will just let you assume that i do not know anything....i wanna prey like a lion,stay still and watch for the right moment then prey in the fastest time!!Watch it......coz im watchinggggggggg.....peace to you,i will return the treatment backkkkkkkkkk

Life have been really busy lately but have really enjoyed myself during work,at least i use work to diversify my attention.I guess after that incident,what you said or do doesn't really catch my attention now.Anger was firstly boiled but now it seem that DISAPPOINTMENT have been replaced,i am just waiting for the right time to do something i have to do.
Was that you that i saw at the hawker center today?though you did not turn around but i am pretty SURE it was YOU,i do not know how i was feeling anyway,i intended to walk over and say hi to you but i know what the outcome will be....so i reckon not...just hope you are in the best of health and lead a happy life ba

Got myself a new job and have been really busy at work recently,though it's still in sales line however it's different kinda product im doing now.Im starting from the very basic,learning all the product knowledge.A total new learning experience.There could be only 3 things in my everyday life now,WORK,EAT,SLEEP.My gym-ing session have been reduced,only to frequent it once a week.
Edison have asked me when am i going for my fitness training course,maybe i should do it when everything stable down.Give me abit more time ya.
I feel that once again i have reach my life junction,should i turn right?left?or simply go straight?
I hate making choices especially when i have options but when sometimes when we are left with no choices,we grumbled.I know you guys may find me contridicting but this is human,doesn't it?

So you think you are good at this game?Let me tell you,the rule of the game is dun get caught when you violate the rules!!!for once,twice...i've caught you.Now,you are getting me into playing this sort of game with you...i have given you chances to admit but you ust dun!!!WTF!!
Let see how you will fare in this game,im too,a GAMER,a plotter
May god bless u not too lose fucking badly to me!!!
All i want is revenge........UPON YOU!!Mark my word!!

I have started to get back on my workout since last week,it was really hella outta of shape,i could feel my body started to ache for days after my workout but neverless it was a great 1st step out and it will get better.Thanks for that asshole to let me benchmark and motivate me!!I swear i will get better and bigger!!
Founded a new job,will start work tml,after a long laid off as a employee,now gotta start all over from scratch.Wish me luck and if you guys wanna get watches,can come look for me ya!!lols
There was so much i wanted to do yet i have been procastinating my time.Hope it will be a wise choice that i choose...

You are not fighting with anyone but the devil within

Let the steam run

I shall marked you as my motivator,Asshole....
From today onwards,i shall gonna overwhelmed you faggort.I do not like to hate someone but you have tested my limt,so therefore the only wa to get rid of the hatred is to benchmarked you in my life and suppress you.Mark my word,the 1st thing im gonna do is rebuild my body again.
Stay tuned...ASSHOLE

Am i getting too lazy?

Arggghhh...Why can't i just walk that 1st step out to start my plan which have been on my thought for so long,it's not that difficult afterall...sign...keep on procastinating.
Another lazy,raining morning today...i wanna get back to shape like i used to be!!
Come on!!!Just make that 1st move and everything will flow natural Donny!!
JIA YOU!!

幸福,下一站

There are 2 things in life people would feel blessed and happy with: $$$ and LOVE,i can't deny these 2 factors solely affect people's life and changes in them.
Edison is one of them being affected by LOVE recently,it been so long since i saw him gleaming over the light.It takes two hand to clap,i think they are very much in love,i understand that feeling.haha....perhap,maybe,that is the lady he might settle down?Neverless i sincerely wish them all the best and keep that desire burning lols.
Hey edison,if you happen to pass by my blog,good job!! Feel with your heart and others will feel u too,life isn't all abt success,when you have give ur 100% even it doesn't turn out the way it is,there will be no regret coz you know you have give your best shot!!Cheersssssss :)

Get alive

Every stories have an end,and every ending starts a new beginning.One door close marks another door open.Time doesn't stop there and life doesn't end there,there will be times when people fall really hard,but when you falls,it doesn't mean the end of everything,it embarks a new beginning instead.
Life isn't a bed of roses,you wun always get what you wish and stop wishing that it would be better if this happens or that happens.A true fisherman doesn't fish with better baits,better rod.They make the best with what  they had.

Be Remebered or be Hated?

Johnny hate jazz once sang "i wish i could turn back the clock".In reality there wasn't any time machine that any genius scientist could invent,however the clock could be turned but not those days,just in the mind of memories it have captured every single moment of happiness,bad times,hurting debates,laughter.it can go as far as 11 years backtrack to feel every moment of climates shared.
Sidney sheldon once wrote famous book called"Nothing Last Forever",That piece of paper can be torn,that road of direction can be changed or maybe one wouldn't be remembered for the passion that have been once burning and maybe would be remembered for those wrongdoing of the grieves that have caused.
Whatever the causes and effect would be,it was once a beautiful moment in time of our life,just like everywhere you go,you tends to ponder for a while to captured those moment just deja voo.
i know david cook had dedicate "always be my baby" in American idol to win his place there,you dedicated that song on 2008 19th dec on your profile and right now 5th march 2010 im dedicating this song,hope you are living fine and better than me.TAKE CARE ALWAYS as you will be forever remembered http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wSrt-Inyo9A

We were as one babe


For a moment in time

And it seemed everlasting

That you would always be mine

Now you want to be free

So I'm letting you fly

Cause I know in my heart babe

Our love will never die, noooooo

You'll always be a part of me

I'm a part of you indefinitely

Girl don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry no

And I won't beg you to stay

If you're determined to leave girl

I will not stand in your way

But inevitably you'll be back again

Cause ya know in your heart babe

Our love will never end no

You'll always be a part of me

I'm part of you indefinitely

Girl don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on

Time cant erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

I know that you'll be back girl

When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh

I know that, you'll be right back

Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time

You'll always be a part of me

I'm part of you indefinitely

Girl don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my,....my baby....

You'll always be apart of me (you will always be)

I'm part of you indefinitely

Girl don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on (we will linger on)

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

You will always be my baby

TIME OF LIFE

Life is like walking in a concrete jungle which you will encounter alot of junctions where decision gotta make going for a left turn?right turn?proceed ahead?Many times we tends to lost ourselves in those direction or maybe having a wrong turn.Every direction lead to a new opening even with the wrong turn,however if we could have conquered our mindet,just like they say,one door closed another open up.
Do not give up,sometimes we just need that little some time to ourselves and find back the lost direction in mind and proceed on...REST is for a better journey

爱的感觉，总是在一开始觉得很甜蜜，


总觉得多一个人陪、多一个人帮你分担，

你终於不再孤单了，至少有一个人想著你、恋著你，

不论做什么事情，

只要能一起，就是好的，

但是慢慢的，随著彼此的认识愈深，

你开始发现了对方的缺点，

於是问题一个接著一个发生，

你开始烦、累，甚至想要逃避，



有人说爱情就像在捡石头，

总想捡到一个适合自己的，

但是你又如何知道什么时候能够捡到呢？

*她适合你，那你又适合她吗?

其实，爱情就像磨石子一样，

或许刚捡到的时候，你不是那么的满意，

但是记住人是有弹性的，

很多事情是可以改变的，

只要你有心、有勇气，

与其到处去捡未知的石头，

还不如好好的将自己已经拥有的石头磨亮磨，你开始磨了吗？



很多人以为是因为感情淡了，

所以人才会变得懒惰。

错！

其实是人先被惰性征服，

所以感情才会变淡的。





*在某个聚餐的场合, 有人提议多吃点虾子对身体好， 这时候有个中年男人忽然说「十年前，当我老婆还是我的女朋友的时候，她说要吃十只虾，我就剥二十只给她！ 现在，如果她要我帮她剥虾壳，开玩笑！我连帮她脱衣服都没兴趣了，还剥虾壳咧！



*听到了吗？明白了吗？

难怪越来越多人只想要谈一辈子的恋爱，却迟迟不肯走入婚姻。

因为，婚姻容易让人变得懒惰。

如果每个人都

懒得讲话、

懒得倾听、

懒得制造惊喜、

懒得温柔体贴，

那么夫妻或是情人之间，

又怎么会不渐行渐远渐无声呢？

所以请记住：

有活力的爱情，

是需要适度殷勤灌溉的，

谈恋爱，更是不可以偷懒的喔！



*有一对情侣，相约下班後去用餐、逛街，可是女孩因为公司会议而延误了， 当她冒著雨赶到的时候已经迟到了30多分钟， 他的男朋友很不高兴的说： 你每次都这样，现在我甚么心情也没了， 我以後再也不会等你了！ 刹那间，女孩终於决堤崩溃了， 她心里在想：或许，他们再也没有未来了



*同样的在同一个地点，另一对情侣也面临同样的处境； 女孩赶到的时候也迟到了半个钟头，他的男朋友说：我想你一定忙坏了吧！ 接著他为女孩拭去脸上的雨水，并且脱去外套盖在女孩身上， 此刻，女孩流泪了, 但是流过她脸颊的泪却是温馨的。



你体会到了吗？

*其实爱、恨往往只是在我们的一念之间！



爱不仅要懂得宽容更要及时， 很多事可能只是在於你心境的转变罢了！

懂了吗？

当有个人爱上你，而你也觉得他不错。

那并不代表你会选择他。

*我们总说：我要找一个你很爱很爱的人，才会谈恋爱。

但是当对方问你，怎样才算是很爱很爱的时候，

你可能无法回答他，因为你自己也不知道。



*没错，我们总是以为，我们会找到一个自己很爱很爱的人。

可是後来，当我们猛然回首，我们才会发觉自己曾经多么天真。

假如从来没有开始，你怎么知道自己会不会很爱很爱那个人呢？

其实，很爱很爱的感觉，是要在一起经历了许多事情之後才会发现的。

或许每个人都希望能够找到自己心目中百分之百的伴侣，

但是你有没有想过在你身边会不会早已经有人默默对你付出很久了，只是你没发 觉而已呢？

所以，还是仔细看看身边的人吧！

他或许已经等你很久喽！



*当你爱一个人的时候，爱到八分绝对刚刚好。

所有的期待和希望都只有七八分；剩下两三分用来爱自己。

如果你还继续爱得更多，很可能会给对方沉重的压力，让彼此喘不过气来， 完全丧失了爱情的乐趣。



*所以请记住，

喝酒不要超过六分醉，

吃饭不要超过七分饱，

爱一个人不要超过八分



*那天朋友问我：到底该怎么做才算是爱一个人呢？

我笑著跟他说：其实每个人的爱情观都不一样，说对了叫开导，但就怕说错反倒变成误导。那就糟糕了！



*如果你也正在为爱迷惘，或许下面这段话可以给你一些启示：

爱一个人，要了解，也要开解；

要道歉，也要道谢；

要认错，也要改错；

要体贴，也要体谅；

是接受，而不是忍受；

是宽容，而不是纵容；

是支持，而不是支配；

是慰问，而不是质问；

是倾诉，而不是控诉；

是难忘，而不是遗忘；

是彼此交流，而不是凡事交代；

是为对方默默祈求，

而不是向对方诸多要求；

可以浪漫，但不要浪费；

可以随时牵手，但不要随便分手。

Wat time izzit

It caught me again after so long!!!Y does it have to appeared again after so long??Was it due to unforseen stress?Was it due to things had been happening recently?Was it some thoughts couldn't find it direction?
INSOMNIA.....y do u appear again **sign****

NEW YEAR

New year,new resolution??Is that how ppl motivate themselves or just console themselves that life will be better?Practically i think solution will be better than resolution for problems that arises or still intact in everybody's life!!
Let's face the fact....u close ur eyes,grab ur hands together and wish upon a star,hoping that the wishes will come true...having wealth?good health?smoothly sailing or anything you guys can think of however the fact is....you just wishhhhh...does it gonna happen?GOD knows...
everything happen for a reason..and behind every reason reacted from what have done..so..in order to tackle it...u need a solution.....not a resolution!!!

Fli Li Flung....wat the fuck you toking??Ang mo??

As usual,went for interview this morning,the feeling aren't the same like last week,in my jeans,t-shirt and cardigan..it just feel so much more relax than the PROFESSIONAL ATTIRE!!
They asked me to filled up the form and a survey and here comes an expatrate,my name was called and being lead into a conference room.
i sat down and he just shoot his words which goes on and on and on....leaving me stranded there looking at him,nodding my head,in my mind i was wondering "wat the fuck was he toking?" slanging the language that i have difficulty catching wat he is trying to put across me,so i just feign that i noe wat he is saying and by nodding my head hoping that he will stop for the moment,finally he stopped and said,"Donny,so tell me abt yourself."I was caught by surprise and begin to sit up,looking at him and his assistant,so i introduce myself and blah blah blah and so on...
Approaching the end of the interview,i was being asked by yet something i can't imagine,"so Donny,are you actively looking for jobs?" Halozz...wat do u think im here today huh??of coz i wan a job!!i really can't imagine
 "So u were saying at the moment you are helping put ur aunt(which is a white lie i have told,god forgive me),wun you continue to help her out?" I prefer to get a job outside of coz
 "Anymore question cause im rushing for a meeting" Wah kaoz...wat do u wan me to ask then?you have oredi told me u r rushing off to a meeting,do i have the cheek to ask IF I HAVE QUESTIONS...C2PID!!!
Lastly shaking my hand and off i go...damn....so am i shortlisted or not huh??
I shld have guess the answer then

Good advice or just piece of Shit?

"What you think is good,doesn't mean is right for me!!" people...does this pharse sound familiar to you?I think it is for most of the time,have they really know what is all about?What's the main concern?What's the expectation like?blah blah and so on....
It can be an advice...however if it is not carefully interprete it...it will turn out to be a turn-off to others,dun assume it is when you have not put urself into the other party's shoes and reflect.
Choices of words,ways of conveying the message and the tone of ur voice...MAGGORTS out there...i dunno have you understand what im saying.....somehow i do hope your do!!!
If you dun....i dun blame you,cause you reap what you sow,you will just get the dessert you wan it to turn out to be...think again...hmmmm......**Wondering***

What a morning

This morning woke up staring at the piles of clothes like an alien,damnn...where is my professional attire!??!!
I need it by 45mins!!!Guess i have to make full use of what i have it..putting on an all white horse prince attire,staring at the mirror and wonders"Who is this monster standing in front of me?!?!?!"
Nevertheless i step out of the house,making my way down for the job interview with the managing director!
Feel stress huh...by hearing the postiton im being interview by..
We chat and chat....but i know im not the one they are looking for...they want someone who major in marketing,well i did..but it was one of my core module!!!
Shld have asked in detail when the receptionist called me up,LBS...
I think the receptionist was a damn LBS peabrain species,knn...call and ask me can i start work immediately once shortlist,am i a singaporean,pls put on ur PROFESSIONAL ATTIRE...All sound like so easy yet stupid!!!Well...maybe i just cant push all the blames on her...I SHLD HAVE ASK MORE QUESTIONS!!!!ARGHHHHH

OMG

It's oredi the 5th day of 2010,i dun see it's getting bettter than last year haha...
been called up for interview tml,however the recep. told me to put on professional attire.
I was wondering on the other side of the phone thinking"WAT THE FUCK IS PROFESSIONAL ATTIRE????",so i asked her the stupid question back and here comes the stupidest answer i ever heard!!! "Well,Mr Tan,no jeans,no short."
I said "OK,thanks!!!" hmmm......wat the heck is dat?
Pants and shirt?
wah lau eh...really Lau Bak Sai....
i only wear pants once in my whole lifetime....where the heck am i going to get the pant and shoes???
Damnmit.........lols

When can i go???????

That is so so so COOL.....piza tower in italia and the great view of maldives!!!

Damn...that was 1 wish that i actually wish for in 2010...lols

would dat come true?

hmmmm....**scratching head***