Finalize eventually

It was on 16th May 2000,saturday....i dress like a man with shirt and pants together with a bunch of flowers,we drove up to ROM,that was my big day...im gettting married,all those witnesses,our parents and the judge of course,those familiar sentences we heard over and over again either in the TV soap opera or either on friend's ROM day.
Today,I went up to the lawyer firm to collect my DIVORCE CERT,i went in with a normal mood,nothing special feeling,signed it and took the copy away,the lady mdm Long who passed me the copy said,"congrats,it's all been finalize."i gave a smile and walk away,on my way back,i took out the copy and read it just for the sake of what is the paper was about and vivid images of what's happenned in this total 12 years time period,thoughts flooded my mind,i wasn't thinking the way i was before,rather i did not blame anyone nor SHE...i started to think,did i did what i did as a duty before?Did i contribute enough?Well,what happenned oredi does,it's a good thing that finally both of us could live our life as an individual,but how abt Ashley?
I started to think about what my mum and my sis said to me....actually Ashley is the most innocent and the victim of the decision that you two have made,i understand the well mean and the cruel decision impact will have on her,but Ashley,pls forgive daddy....it wasn't your fault that mommy and me do not stayed together,it's just that mommy and I have learnt that we are not suitable for each other and we keep quarreling,but there is 1 thing for sure,I LOVE YOU ASHELY and i REALLY DO,although you have not heard from me or there is kinda wall btw us.
It took a long 12 yrs to settled the hatred,the issue,problems we had and have.I do not blame you or regret about anything,it just that we just doesnt work out the way we thought we might be,especially when we have our own nest,own liability,responsiblities.WE ARE JUST NOT PREPARED at that moment.Afterall this 12yrs we have took each other's time,youth and laughter.Sorry for all the time we wasted,Sorry for the effort that was in vain and sorry that we broke each other heart.although it's all in the past tense....
Sincerely i do wish and hope there is someone who can look after you,love ashley the way you love her,it would be enough for me to see you smile once again like before.
Hope everything works out the way we want after this divorce......
Gradually,i feel tears in my eyes.....im a human afterall............
Let's hope the best that will happen for each other in the near future.