It's 2011!!There goes the not gonna remembered 2010,it's just feel so much better with a new year,new beginning and of course a NEW ME....Nothing can be better than now as im really making my time full of uses,more meaningful.
You can have your fucking life for all i care,u can do whatever you want for all i care...the bottom line is What you do is ur fucking biz!!Whhahaha...Recently there was just too much rumours and i wondered how did it happened?Never did i expected all this,just way too much for me to digest...But currently im just not gonna think so much...so sorry!!
Life wasn't just about commintment and getting serious i guess,ive been wasting too much time pursing something and it's something that i having a pobia rite now.Just wonder why some ppl could rush into things that fast,is it possible?maybe or maybe not...maybe it's just about getting a replacement rite after an encounter however I DUN GIVE A FUCK!!Whahahaha....bon Jovi sang "its my life,it's now or never,im ain't gonna live forever" so what you do is ur fucking life,not mine...for mine..i will live it good,live it well,live it enjoyable...KK,i really got a shock about you,but i really does not wanna think so far,so much..so sorry,i noe some things you can't control de,sorry for things to turn out this way,SZ!!you are really so silly,sometimes even tickle my laughing veins!!lols...but time is just enjoyable with you around...
WF...thanks for accompany me when im in my down period,somethings that are meant to be will be...i know there's a lot of thing that you think i do not know,i wun even ask...if you feel that the time is rite to say it out,you can have the time,just be happy ba...
To all peeps out there,sometimes learning to survive in adverse situation will make you stronger as they are a test in your life which will test you to fall and pick up again,so nevermind the adverse,welcome them and make it a solution which will help u understand a lot of ppl and situation around you!!
Take care and awaiting for the CNY which i will coming to attend,Mum,Sis,BB and all my loved one...pls leave your door open,I WILL BE BACK!!It will not be like last 2years ago...disappearing without a trace just a mobile to reach me!!!I can't wait!!!hehe

For the past weeks,thoughts have rampage thru my mind,thinking about what's to plan ahead..Thanks to all these adverse situation,god's test to me..it's time to pick myself up and carry on with my life!!!
Life is all about making decision!!Once made,do not look back and do not regret coz life'stoo short for that,it was meant for other better purposes!!
Thank you for all these adverse!!What doesn't kill me will just make me STRONGER!!
I have been shutting myself out too long,maybe it'stime to do what i think i should do!!
When you have did your best,do not worry about the result as they said,you can do whatever you can...the rest will depends on fate!!
Once again...Thanks to all those adverse!!!
I have learn to love it rather than sitting in a corner whining and moaning!!!
LIFE GOES ON ya!!!

I have always pick myself up every fall,i have been tough all thru out,when today you told me the cruel truth,my mind is in a blank,i just can't digest every words.It just like a recorder which keep playing again and again in my mind and i just can't think of anything...why does it happen when i truthfully putting my heart and soul into something that i have decided,times and times i have been trying to resurface and saving it......i thought that when things could go back to the starting point,things can be improve and could be even better......until i realised a fact that the STARTING POINT is an ENDING POINT!!Why??WHY am i so useless??
The words just keep ramming my mind,invading my mind,i try to think wat am i going to do.....somehow or rather....my mind is in a TOTALLY BLANK....i really can't think,can't figure.....not a solution not an answer there!!Looking thru the times,the holidays,those happy moments...i cried....it's not just my eyes,my heart too....Letting go=Freedom???Is that so??I know whatever i do now can't change your thinking and feeling.
perhaps is this the ending??Everybody wants a happy ending,what about me??Why?There is just too many WHY in my head now and i just can't figure out why....everybody want the understanding from everyone,is there anyone out there to understand what the fucking shit i'm facing now?
I've been strong,the only time i've cried is my beloved dad DAD pass away without me having the last look at him,but why now??why am i in tears?Why?
Perhaps you guys out there have the answer.....but......it's still me......perhaps times will heal all wounds,for all i know now is Why am i feeling this way?Where is the strong in me?Where is the toughness in me?where is the take thing easy attitude in me?Where is the "XIAO SHA" in me?WHERE are you when i needed you most??

What the fuck is happening to you now?Are you losing confidence in yourself or are you losing confidence in others??
You had fall hard before and stand up again and again!!
Standing at this cross road junction,wat is your fucking decision?you gotta make a choice.
Life is all about choices,isn't it?Be good or bad....
Maybe you should learn to let go...because letting go=Freedom
How many actually 5yrs do you have in life right now?
DONNY!!! Dun give up!!Life is still beautiful whatever decision you make,just think carefully because life isn't about regret,it's about being getting better!!!

There a reason for what is happening,there is a reason for thing that have done...when there is a game that is being played,everybody wanted to win by hook or by crook!!
therefore,i will make you play my game and make you fall real hard this time round!!!
MARK MY WORDS!! **evil Grin**

For the time i stepped out of the house i thought those days were gone,from the day you changed your num,i thought it was over.....until you told me you was always there for me and you just wanna leave us some space,you did not give up on me and told me not to give up on myself....now i know.......you have not changed....i really do not wanna burden you both with my problem that i have created....
Wishes youhave a great happybirthday ahead and may all your wishes come true.....
All i wanna say is for the time i solvemyproblemswill be the day i marked my return...sincerely,hopefully i hope you can wait

Times reallyflies,2010 gonna end in 2mths time,1st thing that cameto my mind is ashley is oredi 10yrs old..i really misses her,everyone asking me is there a possibility to salvage the things that used to be?Well.....i do not dare to think so much as for now.1thing in my mind is if ever there's achance to leave here,i would not hesitate to do so as there is no 1 or nothing for me that can keep me here in this pathetic place...
For those who are feeling lost,dun give up,for those who having a greattime....cherish the time spent as youguys would not know wat's thefuture have in store for you....