27/06/09

They say heaven got EYES,what we do,heaven is watching..what goes around comes around...thou shall not speaks doesn't mean thou shall not know..someimes keeping it unknown may be a best way or white little lies that keep trouble spelling.Human are strange big creature that most of them do not have a mirror reflecting themselves what they are doing until they stumbled a rolling stone.
U do what you think,u reap what u sow.U think u r clever without thinking there's always a mountain higher somewhere,life is just like playing games,some goes by the rules whereby some in fact ignore the rules..Rules of the game is that ''U CAN DO ANYTHING BEHIND THE RULES BUT DUN GET CAUGHT!!"
INSANE OR A SAINT...U decide....it's just a thin hairline btw both.

THIS IS LIFE

Losing everything and fell rock bottom is part and parcel in life,it just depends on how one will stand up from the fall,knowing the path and walking the path is 2 different thing.Dun say one will know wat it means...face it and you will damn fucking knowing the whole process.Good friends dun say much,they will just stand by you,no matter how it is...loved one stands by you,no matter how hard it takes...perhap only in difficult circumstances,one will realised much much more things,situation,envioroment and see "through" people who though they are friends,but they aren't.FUCK THEM ALL who think they are...for those geniune ones.....stay put and stay calm...
As they said...the whole is round.Dun be happy if one have succeeded coz consistancy plays a part,those who failed doesn't need to feel sad,it's just a stepping stone to something more...
Every rose has it's thorns
Just like every night has it's dawn
Just like every cowboy sing his sad sad song
Every rose has it's thorn
This ain't a song for the brokenhearted
No silent prayer for the faith departed and I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice when I shout it out loud
This is for the ones who stood their ground
For Tommy and Gina who never backed down
Tomorrow's getting harder, make no mistake
Luck ain't even lucky, gotta make your own breaks
You better stand tallWhen they're calling you out
Don't bend, don't breakBaby, don't back down
It's my lifeIt's now or never
'Cause I ain't gonna live forever
I just wanna live while I'm alive
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said, "I did it my way"I just wanna live while I'm alive
(It's my life)

THANK YOU FOR THE 1 MIN. CONCERNTRATION...
ROCK YOUR LIFE,DAMN ASS!! LOLS

LET GO = FREEDOM???

Sms roam me yesterday nite,"just get prepare to sign the paper that binding me and you for the god damn 9yrs and custordy of Ashley will be yours" 1st word that came to my mind was DAMN IT,in the 1st place u were the one asking me not to fight for her and now u just want to shake her off,i replied "FINE,if u dun wan her,i will take care of her" Came the reply"btw i will check for the value of the hse and get it sell off by end of this yr to settle everything"
So i just told her what will happen if were to came to this decision at this point of time,she told me off not to teach her what to do!!FUCK IT...im just telling you what will happen, and im not teaching anyone what to do now...so i told her im tired,really tired that i do not wish to tok anymore since she doesnt get what i mean.
I made my mistake which i did not spent enough time with Ashley in the 1st place that the reason why BB doesnt feel close to me,i dun blame anyone,i will face my music....i aso understand that it's been a torturing 10yrs and have to wait for another 3more yrs before everything can be settled is a thorn to you...i dun blame you..perhap u have found ur new life,everybody move on....life's goes on...perhap,perhap....LET GO = FREEDOM
What a piece of prediction to end the year 2009!!
Suddenly came a piece of lyric in my mind "im sorry for the times i left u home while i was on the road and u were alone at home,im sorry for the times i had to go,im sorry for the fact that i did not know that you were sitting at home wishing we could go back when it was just you and me,im sorry for the time i would neglect im sorry for the time for those disrespect,im sorry for the wrong thing that ive done im sorry for the fact im not away that you cant sleep at nitewhen im not ard,becoz im in the street for everyday,im sorry for the thing i did not say like how you were the best thing in my lifeand how i was so roud to call you my girl and i understand there's some problemsand im not too blind to know all the pain you kept inside youeven u might not show,if i cant apologize for being wrong then it's just a shame on me i'd be the reason for your painand you could put the blame on me."Alhough this song is sang by akon to her mum however to me,it's me to her and my BB

Time wasn't Right

They noe each other due to some unforseen reason(fate is the word i would say).After knowing each other for some times,they could really click and could tok everything under the sun from teenage life to recent things that had happened.Learning from her,he realised that she have been thru lotsa situation which not everyone could image,it could be normal,it could been complicated (everybody see things from different angle).
Although she had been thru so many kind of situation,he knows that what happen recently was too much for her to take it,from work,relationship to family matters,however she still put up a strong front acting that it's just normal but deep inside he can sense that she is feeling so stress to handle all these things.He tried to find time to accompany her coz she will do something which you guys would not even imagined!!
One fine nite,as usual he went over to accompany her,things looks normal and conversation strike up which was a happy one making her feel at least there is someone out there who cares about her.
The next morning,he recieved a text from her that she made an important decision which shock him coz she told him the next morning she will be going to work,he replied however she did not replied back...knowing that it was a big and brave decision she had made becoz she did mentioned before.He.....deep inside his heart knows that sooner or later she have to do something about it.
It was out of nowhere that they know each other not for long and they both know that both of them have feel towards each other but due to complicated reason and situation.....they could only let nature take it's course.....
He could just hope that she will be fine and safe after everything ended.Let time and nature do the work.